its been a freaking long time since i've wrote in here. seriously long. things have been madness and i kinda simply forget the mere existence of this blog. oh well. lotsa stuff have changed. good and bad i guess. but i can't help missing the way things were in the past. if only time could be rewound and relived. i would gladly do it.sighs. i know, i sound emo. but i guess the stress is eating into me pretty badly. somehow im better with writing then i am with talkin abt it so yeah, decided to bullshit it all here.

RJ's been good. as in, i really enjoy my time there with my class, friends and all. its a whole lot better than RG in many aspects. But i guess that's just one side of it. Have been lagging in my work and have never caught up since the start of the year. i dont say it but im scared. yeah. the possibility of failing is actually very high for me. damn. people keep telling me to just keep working hard and i do but nothing seems to be changing much. oh well. that's just school. Training hasn been a breeze either. or at least my coach isnt. team issues are weighing me down too. sometimes i just wanna throw in the towel and walk out but i guess i know better den to do so. really miss the past when things were different with those im close to. lots have changed and i guess dont really like the way it all is now. but i guess i've got no choice but to live with it.wadever la.

i've sorta abandoned this blog since FAM but i'm back again to update on my pretty boring life for the last few weeks. oh wells. not that there's much to update since i've been pretty much stuck at home for the past few days cause according to my parents, "I'VE BEEN GOING OUT TOO MUCH" like shruggs?i go out like once a week? unless they count training as going out,which i think they do and which i also think is seriously retarded.. anyways, so for the past few days i've been hanging around at home and spending like solid, quality time with my piano. its cause i dont have anything else to do at home la (except for some tv time, which isnt much cause i aint got cable and those shows on local channels are kinda pathetic). not that i love the piano that much though i would say i've grown to like it more than i used to.

guess the only thing worth blogging about was cell bonding last weekend. had a sleepover in church and it was a blast:)) we had dinner together- roast chicken, pizza,sandwiches,cheese sausages, mashed potato, fishballs + lots and lots and lots of snacks:)) den went to one of the rooms upstairs and played games. wacko was really funny cause ives kept calling aarathi (and he says it in a hilarious way) and everytime he calls aarathi, everyone just laughs. seriously, ives and johnboy are two professional clowns. well, after that Kara showed us a photo montage she made for our cell since the time we first formed up in sec 2. it was pretty hilarious looking back at how different we were in the past. esp ben thia! gosh! he was like a small kid then but now he's taller than me. such great difference a few years can make. after dat, we played taboo which was really suppperrr funn with so many pple playing together! loved that game!

sophia and ruiwen came late after their prom and we got to see them in their dresses and makeup! pretty!:)) den we played some more taboo! hahas! the girls totally owned the guys! girl power :P hahahas! after we got sick of taboo, we played "polar bear". interesting game. hahas. oh wells, after all these games, we got kinda hungry again so we went down to the kitchen to eat again and we ended up playing some supposedly intelligent but super lame game called "think aloud" and "fuzzy wuzzy". was supposed to try to figure out some pattern in that game and the "pattern" is seriously super duper lame" gosh. cant imagine we spent like almost 3hours playing that, trying to guess the patterns.. but it was fun nonetheless! by the time we finished eating and guessing (lol), it was like 3+am so we went up, the girls went to their rooms and guys went to theirs. went to shower and after that we decided that since it was already 4+am, we aint gonna sleep. seriously, i didnt really think i wouldnt sleep cause normally i would say i aint gonna slp and end up sleeping in the wee hours the next morning. but this time, i really really didnt sleep!!! toked the whole night. charmaine the piano pro entertained us with the keyboard for awhile, played cards etc.

overall, it was a great time with the cell and i guess i will really miss this cell a whole lot next year cause we are splitting. everyone gets on really well with everyone else and we've grown pretty close over the years. oh well, life goes on i guess. but its still kinda sad you noe.

anw, the next day after the sleepover, i didnt go home and crash into my bed although i would very gladly do so. I WENT TO SENTOSA with pple from my cell, my cousins and some other pple from church! hahahas.was half dead at the beginning but after we started playing there, i didn feel that sleepy anymore. but as soon as we showered and left the beach, gosh, i felt super tired again. went to eat at carls junior and i was so tired i didnt have much of an appetite. ate half of my burger and gave hansel the rest to wolf down.he seriously can eat ALOT. after eating he still say that when he goes to our grandfather's house, he and his bro are gonna eat again. gosh. both my cousins are like some kinda eating machine. hahahas!sat outside carls junior and the guys started playing...i don't know what...but they were chasing each other around and shooting ice at each other. was quite hilarious cause they are like 15-18 years old and were running around like kids. second childhood. seriously. anyway, after that, i gladly went home and crashed into bed immediately after i showered and slept all the way till noon the next day.

oh wells. that's about all that's worth writing about during the past few days.

leaving for beijing for training tmr.gosh.its super cold there now. -3 to 5 deg. crazy la. and i'm like supposed to train? cant imagine wearing t-shirt and shorts in that kinda weather although the hall would be heated.still will be super cold. and im very very very scared of cold la!blaaax..

hahas. swensens 2 nights in a row. how cool's that? i just casually mentioned the promotion at my grandfather's hosue yesterday after dinner and my aunt (celeste's mum) was like "ok! lets go!call the rest of them...they sure wanna go one" so i went into the room to call all the cousins and we left my grandfather's house to go to swensens at thomson plaza.

while waiting for a place in the restaurant (cause there were like 19 of us), we were playing outside where there were 2 "kiddy rides". at first hansel asked me to try to sit on one of the rides so i just tried lor.but before i could go in he was like "eh! u scare small boy lah!" referring to a small boy who was standing beside the ride looking at me. so i went like "orh, ok lor" and came down. then this spastic cousin of mine decided to try sitting on it himself. and when he got on it, the small boy's eyes literally WIDENED. so kenny,celeste,markus,marcel and i started laughing lah! please lah, say i scare small boy. he's e one who scared the small boy lah! then my aunty came along (pearlyn's mum) and said "my turn my turn!" so she tried to sit. one of my cousins went "make sure sit already can come out ah!" hahahas! she sat and started turning thr steering wheel. 2nd childhood man! looked super comical!took a video of it! hahas! den after that hansel and i started competing who could balance on one leg for a longer period of time. that idiot keep pushing me and trying to make me laugh! liddat of course lose lah!! hahahas.

anyways, when we finally into the restaurant, the cousins sat together while the parents sat at another table. only aunty patsy and aunty edna sat with us. and aunty patsy kept saying that she's still young. hahahas! we ordered a giant earthquake which meant we got another giant earthquake free! yupp. only my sis and josh ordered their own sundaes while the other 8 of us shared 2 giant earthquakes! cool huh? wasnt supposed to eat too much of it cause i was having a sore throat but when the earthquake came, i totally forgot about my sore throat and flu and just spammed it! den i just randomly said i felt like eating baked rice and kenny was like "order one lah! i also want to eat!" and hansel wanted prawn dippers so after our ice-cream, we ordered those. hahas. seriously.if you think i eat alot, look at my cousins!i tell you, its definitely in the genes!while we were eating, aunty patsy was trying to do a cross eye so i showed her my funny monkey face and they all laughed like mad. kept telling me to do it again so they can take picture! wah...treat me like a monkey in the zoo on exhibition la! hahas! anyways, after the whole thing, we left happy and satisfied.

was feeling alot better after swensens.totally forgot abt my sore throat and flu! but now, after 1 night of slp, i guess its all back again. sian. oh wells, maybe i need another round of swensens (today's the last day of the promotion some more! hahahas!)